A couple of weeks ago I had an audition for a new mini series. It was for one of the main characters and my initial reaction was "ooh my, I am so ready for this!"
You know that feeling that all the hard work you have put in has come to this role and you just have the strongest inner feeling that it is going to be yours? Well that's how I felt.
My goal however was to be relaxed, do as much homework as possible, create a compelling performance for the casting Director and enjoy myself. I was also excited to practice some new audition room skills such as treating the CD as a colleague instead of a superior, offer my performance with confidence and to not doubt my offering. Also to connect with the CD and the staff as friends (without going over the top of course).
And it couldn't have gone better! I had a great experience and did what I rehearsed. Was relaxed / in the moment / listening to the boom stick that was playing the other character (which was better then the thin air above a chair that I was rehearsing with- thanks boom stick!). My ability to take direction was also kick ass. I connected with the CD and had fun! Her enthusiasm for my audition was great too.... I had this in the bag.
I always give an audition three working days for notification... If nothing by then I let it go. And so... The third day came and no phone call. Sad. What happened? How can this be?
I processed my disappointment as I'd done many times before but this one really hurt -because my instinct was strong on this one and it too had failed me.
But something happened on day 5- I realised something grand. There are a million reasons why I didn't get the role- a million! Too fat, too skinny, too pretty, to plain, too blonde, too curly.... Or I look like the directors mother in law and he hates his mother in law!!
Ultimately, yes you want to win the role. But what's even more important for your career is the actual audition itself. If you go in and conduct YOUR audition as a professional actor- not desperate. Relaxed. Confident in your choices. Working with the CD as a colleague and present a compelling connected performance - that is your job. That CD will remember you and have you back again and again as long as you're doing just that. Present a professional connected relaxed performance that YOU have created. There is such power in this perspective.
I succeeded in this audition - I've been asked back twice already. Keep your auditions pro!